This is the story of my transition here in the middle of my life. This work covers my experiences and massive transition from age 39 in 2013 up until early 2019 as I captured it in poetry at the time that I lived it. During this time I lived through divorce, experimentation, moving cities, multiple concurrent flings and relationships with many beautiful younger women. The entire process of building my ideal life...all the while fighting through chronic nerve pain that serves as a continuous stark reminder that life is short and nothing lasts. Everything I've written is true. These are the thoughts and experiences that spoke to me and inspired me to write.